Thinking.....

OK, This will be a long long post....


Have been thinking since i went to work just now. What is the things that i want for my future. It has been 2 weeks since i ORD. And i have yet to conclude the answer for myself.

I've made up my mind, and I am going to focus on my work for the coming year. No more Party like before, no more drinking like before. There are more things in life that i should concern about. I'm not one that are really feeding on golden spoon since young. Alot of things happen in my 20years of life. Friends that i have know since young, still thinking that i'm still leading the life i used to have. And i've to say it straight to the point right now, that "I am Not". People call me Shao Ye, and also call me things like "Lao ban de Er Zhi", all this complimanting words to me, sound more like insulting. So sorry guys, Please stop using this words on me. I think i'm just leading a little more better life then you guys, and infact we are equal.

Frankly speaking, i still cant put down the "rich" status that i use to have. But as i grow older(especially after my NS), i tends to let go of it slowly. And to those that feels only if mixing with the rich, make you more comfortable, please exclude me in it. Because i am not rich. I've stop taking money from my parents and i got to work to support myself and to enjoy my life. And i keep on asking, Why is it that i always think for others before myself?? People use to say, if you wan others to treat u better, first you got to treat them double. I am doing what the old says. But in return, i feels that i am not getting any of it in return.

Dad is disappointed with me and my bro, as he did so much to us, and we did not do anything in return. Talk to him in the car earlier on. And i make a promise to him, next year i will do my best to bring the business up. I wan him to drive back the S-Class that he used to have. I wan him to enjoy the rest of his life doing things he love to do. I've tell myself, i cannot be lazy anymore. There are people mocking at my back, laughing at me. I must prove to them that i will not Fall!
Thanks to Jun Kai, my childhood friend. He comes to talk to me in FB, and to share with me things that he face in the past. And ask me not to be depress.

I must thanks alot to my dad for getting the new car -Toyota Estima- A great car i must say. Although it's not the car that i want, but it's still the best. At Es BBQ earlier, someone said something nasty to me(i forget whose that person is). He/She ask me why is it that i don't wish to park my car at the loading bay. Is it that parking beside a BMW-3series makes you feels very pai seh because yours is just a toyota?? And my reply for now is just the same as what i reply to him/her earlier. And it's a straight "NO" i don feel pai seh at all and why should i?? So what if its a 3series, i believe that if i work hard next year, i can easily buy a 5series instead. i dont have to ask my dad to buy for me. And thanks to that person who said this to me. You have motivate me to work even more harder!

Hmmm. I should not think of that special one anymore, this will only slow myself down from climbing up. And i will just back out slowly day by day. And I believe that the person you have been mixing with recently, is capable of giving what i used to gave you. But the love i put in, i believe is more then anyone can give. Since i don get appreciated for what i've being doing, i should start to draw the line slowly. To make it clear that we will go in a seperate ways. But you are always the special one to me. :)

I got alot of things to say, but don know why, i got stumbled on my words when i start typing. I think thats all for today. And tomorrow will be a BETTER DAY! :D


GOOD DAY EVERYONE!!



ps: This post is not refering to anyone, so please don come and ask me, who is the one i am saying. :)

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas to all my friends.. today is 25th of Dec. And my wish for Christmas is to have a better days coming ahead.. Forget all the bad things that are left behind then. Celebrate Christmas at Novotel. Enjoyed ourself and i received my present. A perfume that i wanted to buy. :D Thanks my Dear. Haha. Happy to receive it.


Anyway, it has already pass 12am. And now it's our Dear Boy, Ng Eng Seng Birthday.. Happy Birthday Brother. Don't drink so much although you seems Emo recently.


Ok, that it for my slight update. Take Care all my friends.

ORD LOH!!

What can i say? Happiest Moment of my Life.. Haas..

Happy ORD to Myself and whole of Platoon 1. :D

Happy Birthday to my 2 brothers. :D

Happy Birthday Jeffery which falls on the 13 of nov, and Ah Da which is Tuesday.. :D Happy Birthday to the both of u arz..

AH MEI MEI..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN MEI. :D Gan Dong right. I still manage to meet you up on your Birthday leh. Haha. Sweet 20th Birthday arz.

IPOD~!

WOOTS~! Hello Friends.. Sorry, too long never update my blog. Anyway, i'm soooo happy. Finally got my IPOD fixed. When i actually have to pay $170 to repair my Ipod which i have drop in the washing machine few months back. This Ipod some how do mean something to me arz. Because i bought it with her, and got it into coma because of her as well. But, it doesn't matter anymore. :)


Going ORD soon.. Clearing Off and Leave, do ask me out, i'm very free! LOL. Daddy is planning to pass the Semb shop to me. All i have to do is to take over the shop. But i have to start from scratch again. Unlike my bro. Haiz.


Anyway, i'm rather feeling down recently. Especially i feel that i've been replace by someone else. When he have almost everything, but he just want to take away what i have. Sigh...


Take care my friends, i'm lazy to carry on.

THE WINNER

If you think you are a Beaten. You Are!

If you think you Dare Not. You Don't!

If you would like to win, but you think u can't.

It's almost certain you Won't!

If you think you'll loose, you have Lost.

For out in the world you'll find success begins with a fellow's will.

It's all in his state of Mind.

If you think you are Outclassed, You Are!

You've got to think high to Rise.

You've got to be sure of yourself before you ever can earn a Prize!

Life's battle don't always go for the Stronger or Faster man.

For Sooner or Later, the man who wins is the one who think he CAN!!

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Anyway this article is a poster that are stick inside my camp office. Always motivate me when i'm feeling very down. Hmmm. And Everyone should read this when you feels that you are at the lowest point of your life. Read and you will get motivated. :)

Oh ya, tomorrow is Saturday le. Russia and my cousin is having their first book out. Most probably i will be fetching them. :D

Take care my frens. will update real soon..